活出生命的色彩

说实话，

最近的心情，

很复杂…

无论如何，

既然，你已经向前走了，

那么，

我也没有

原地踏步的理由了

不是吗？

学习看开

学习放手

有人告诉我，

最近的我，

更美了

更有自信了

没有特意

没有为了任何人

只想

好好打扮自己

每个女孩

都想成为公主

没有王子在身边的我

就自己体贴自己

自己呵护自己

成为自己

小小世界中的小小公主

追逐自己小小的梦想

画出自己小小的天空

写下生命的篇章

舞出生命的舞步

我的生命我来做主

如果不是真心，請別靠近我…愛情、我不會演

一篇摘自网上的文章，诉说着我的心情…

如果不是真心
请别再靠近我
如果我有意接近你
请懂得拒绝我

如果不是真心
请别再和我玩爱情游戏
因为游戏终究是要结束的
而我已经厌烦了游戏

如果不是真心
请不要给我关心
哪怕是一句问候的话都不要有

如果不是真心
请不要轻易说
我想你
或是
我在乎你类似的话
因为我真的会当真
而当你厌倦的时候
也许我还期待着你会说
我爱你

喜欢
对你而言
说出喜欢很简单
但对我来说并不是
也许
你只是一时寂寞孤独罢了
等到你找到别的寄托
我就变成多余的了
也许
我们的距离只能走到朋友
男女之间
并不是一定要成为男女朋友的
有时候朋友比情人来的更好

如果不是真心
请不要给我留下任何关于我们的记忆
我会记住该记的、遗忘该忘的
回忆
最伤人的两个字
因为它代表再也回不去

如果不是真心
请不要对我说从新开始
因为我一旦习惯了有你的生活
就很难适应没有你的日子
好不容易做到了
请别再来动摇我

如果不是真心
请不要再来伤害我
抑或靠近我
请不要让我觉得
你真的只是单纯的喜欢我
证明你漂亮的方式有很多
并不需要以伤害我欺骗我的感情为条件

如果不是真心
请别再踏入我的心
因为我是真的很在乎你
而你是不会知道珍惜的
其实没有合不合适
只有珍不珍惜
也许
对你而言
这只不过是你生命里的小小插曲
你可以很快的忘记
但是另外一个人却深深的将你记住了

因为一旦爱上就戒不掉了
要知道人是很愚蠢的
也许你不是有意的
但很不幸的是
你已经在不经意间
走入了他的心里
你让他沉沦
之后你却冷冷淡淡的抽身
对他而言很不公平
因为感情不像闹钟
说停就能停的

也许他是害怕
害怕你最后还是告诉他：
其实我从未对你动心过
抑或
你从来没有在我心里出现过
对不起……
请你忘了我

也许是他多想了
也许你真的是真心的
也许是因为他不再相信爱情了
眼泪告诉我
心很痛
他不是冷血动物
人都是有七情六欲的
除非失忆
否则很难遗忘

过去、现在
甚至将来 ­
FOREVER
时间真的会淡化一切吗?

他已不再是当初那个不懂事的爱着你的人
关于爱情的想象也不再虚幻
他也不奢求那个人能给怎样的开心
他要的只是单纯的爱情
不带任何游戏性
而单一的彼此喜欢
没有那么多的轻浮
没有那么多的随意
更没有欺骗
只是单纯的两颗寂寞的心能互相温暖

所以
如果不是真心
请别再靠近我
我受不起这伤
等到你真的确定
我就是你要找的伴侣时
你再来找我吧！

爱情游戏
我真的玩不起
你知道吗?

爱情……
我不会演

决心

如果，没有抛开一切的决心

如果，没有放下一切的勇气

那么，放手吧！

成为蓝色天空中的红色蜻蜓

去追逐各自的梦想

翱翔在各自的蓝天白云当中

Jan CG Outing

20/01/2011, when other people go for Thaipusam holiday, we are going for our first CG outing of the year, organized by… ME!! Hehe…

Guess what we are going to do today? Yes, CNY cookies. 

And this idea originated from Ilex.

Our outing start with lunch in Seapark, try the special “Loh Pan Mee”, yummy yummy~

After lunch, heading to Karen’s house for cookies making.

Check out some of our materials/ ingredients.

So here is our chef today, welcome *clap clap*

The making, boys and girls in action.

Our delicious yummy CNY cookies.

If you wonder do I ever join in the making, I DO. 

Then why am I not in the photo above? Coz I am photographer of the day. Hehe... ^^

After done with the cookies, we are going for movie Great Day in Sunway Pyramid, 

with our fresh baked CNY cookies. *winks*

Some snap in Pyramid. Daniel tries to tell you he wears a FUNKY shirt. Haha...

Supper time. Craving for asam laksa, tempted by the movie. 

But we end up in Pontian, SS15.

And we shall call it a day. =)

相信擁抱

相信擁抱

你留下的淚水　有甜度　你值得　被肯定　被呵護
世界被創造之前　你就在祂心深處　Woo

看人生　一路上的風景　有耶穌的看顧　就不孤獨
世界被創造之前　你就在祂心深處　Woo

我們相信擁抱　相信愛能累積　過去那些年裡的付出終會有回應
我要用全部的力氣緊緊擁抱你　愛是誰　愛是你　愛是我們的上帝

看人生　一路上的風景　有耶穌的看顧　就不孤獨
世界被創造之前　你就在祂心深處　Woo

我們相信擁抱　相信愛能累積　過去那些年裡的付出終會有回應
我要用全部的力氣緊緊擁抱你　愛是誰　愛是你　愛是我們的上帝

脫去所有沉重回憶　看見祂微笑的表情　神看每個人都如此美麗
當我再次睜開眼睛　身旁的你如此清晰　願我們珍惜最重要的東西

我們相信擁抱　相信愛能累積　過去那些年裡的付出終會有回應
我要用全部的力氣緊緊擁抱你　愛是誰　愛是你　愛是我們的上帝

過去那些年裡的付出終會有回應
我要用全部的力氣緊緊擁抱你　愛是誰　愛是你　愛是我們的上帝

愛是我　愛是你　愛是我們的上帝

Words that hurts… Ouch!!

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

 ¹ There is a time for everything,
   and a season for every activity under the heavens:

 ² a time to be born and a time to die,
   a time to plant and a time to uproot, 

 ³ a time to kill and a time to heal,
   a time to tear down and a time to build, 

 ⁴ a time to weep and a time to laugh,
   a time to mourn and a time to dance, 

 ⁵ a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
   a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, 

 ⁶ a time to search and a time to give up,
   a time to keep and a time to throw away, 

 ⁷ a time to tear and a time to mend,
   a time to be silent and a time to speak, 

 ⁸ a time to love and a time to hate,
   a time for war and a time for peace.

There is a time for everything, a time to be silent and a time to speak.

Recently, there are too many stories that people use words as their weapons to hurt others while they try to protect themselves, these stories are all around me and my friends.

• When you have done something that they dislike, people backstab you.

• When you have done something that people think you have hurt them, people backstab you.

• When you have done something that people think you have hurt their close one/love one, people backstab you.

Words are powerful weapons that can hurt your spirit. They can create barriers in your heart and mind. If we are not careful, sometimes one little phrase can hold us back for years. Worst still, it will paralyze you from trust and love ever again.

I am not saying that I am always right or my friends are always right. For sure we have our part of responsibilities to bear in everything we do and say, in every decision that we make. But it goes the same to the other party.

Therefore, when things goes not right or wrong for you, or when any decision made that hurts you, don’t go to tell the whole world what that particular somebody has done to you and how hurt you are. Instead, think of your responsibility. Coz when words come out from your mouth, you hurt the somebody.

And before you go to spread the rumors you have heard, from your close one/ love one, think twice. Is what you heard the whole truth? Or there are hidden story? And what is the meaning to spread the words all over the world?

There is a time for everything, a time to weep and a time to laugh.

Friends, it’s hurtful to be backstabbed. It’s ok if we need to take some time to cry over it. But after all, we need to learn to get back up and go again. We must cast those words down, don’t let the words linger around our mind, get them off. If those people purposely said those words to hurt us, they will be happier than ever to see us get angry or hurt.

So, the question is, why you want to grant them the happiness they want in hurting you?

It's not up to us to control how people think or say, so JUST SMILE AND RELAX. 

Guide our heart well.

If there’s our fault, correct it.

If we have done our BEST, then God will do the REST.

Stand Up Again

Psalm 23

 ¹ The LORD is my shepherd;
         I shall not want.

 ² He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
         He leads me beside the still waters.

 ³ He restores my soul;
         He leads me in the paths of righteousness
         For His name’s sake.
       
 ⁴ Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
         I will fear no evil;
         For You are with me;
         Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
       
 ⁵ You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
         You anoint my head with oil;
         My cup runs over.

 ⁶ Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
         All the days of my life;
         And I will dwell in the house of the LORD
         Forever.

Have been down for few days because some comment from others. I am down because I know all those statements are true, I am just not good enough, not mature enough.

Yes, I have been beaten down. But it’s time for me to stand up again.

I found that indeed in my 3 years uni life, I have been busy around quite a lot of things. And this brings me lost my focus to my study, I am settled for average in my counselling course. It’s time to catch up in this last year of study.

January is the new beginning of my year 2011, with those closed doors in my life, I have the chance to realign my focus of life and start anew.

All those closed doors simply mean God has something better in store for me. Yes, God is nudging me into a better direction.

I don’t know you, but I LOVE my God, He’s always my comfort and He never fails me. =)